And then I fuck up

I always write in this when I am fucking starving. I wonder why that is oh small blogosphere. 

I found some chips. Doritos. And I am going to eat them. 

I ran all over Iowa City and Coralville to find Closer today because I've been dying to watch it and have been quoting it like a beast on my FB status. Mhm.

I finally found it at FYE and I bought it. I now own it and I watched it after finishing my paper-- I actually finished it and I never thought I'd see the day!

Not the point but exciting none the less.

Anyway, back to the film. While I believe the play is probably way better, way more kick ass the movie still has great words and some great acting. I am also in love with Natalie Portman. Which is good cause someone once told me if anyone were to play me in a movie. It would be her. (Epic. Win.)

It is so brutally honest about people and what they do to each other. The first time I saw it was very naive about how some shit works. People screwing, breaking hearts, loving, not loving, changing your mind, forgetting who you are. 

The whole bit.

The people in this movie love, hate, date, marry, bang each other so many different times it is mind boggling. But it's true.

Things change so fast and love changes and people change and you lose shit and find comfort and you move on and forget it and forget you and then maybe it all comes back.

Maybe watching this movie was a bad call. Or maybe a good? It made me think about some things and I got concerned. That I am doing it all again. Doing what I do. Maybe it is time to just own up to the whole thing and admit who I am.

I'll give you a bit of a hint:

<--- Yeah that's me! I know I look totally cute. Please refer to my previous post if you're like... what the fuck is she talking about.

I chew 'em up and spit 'em out. 

Or maybe not.

Closer is a great movie for nothing other than how honest it is. People are shit and we do bad things and we get confused and we get lost and we question everything. We change, we regret, and sometimes maybe we even love.  

I wouldn't suggest this movie if you are firm believer of the human race and love and true love and yadda yadda yadda. It'll depress you, you won't know what to make of it, and you'll find it untrue. 

-Amanda